Ladies and Gentlemen,
I implore you
To explore the inner workings of my head
For this is what you’ve been waiting for
For me to wake from my bed
– Eliasaph Maze Anderson
I am fully aware that I have been slacking on updating my blog and I deeply apologize, however, as a future professional writer I have become much more serious on how I want my writing to sound and look and to be read. Therefore, I take more time to write stories I would usually write in a day for the shits and giggles. So stay tuned for those wonderful treats because I am finishing up last edits on many projects as well as starting many more. However, today is all about poetry. Most of these poems I wrote at the beginning of this year while the last two I wrote in the past week. I wrote these in many different styles, moods, and degrees of “abstractness.” Also they vary in how well they’re written. The first was written to be terrible, so have fun with that. And my poem “Fools” can be read with the title as part of the poem or without, which is why I didn’t put the title in bold. Alrighty, no more disclaimers, have fun reading, friends. Be back soon.
Deliciously Bad Poem: Sanctuary
Coffee & coffee how I love thee
Books & even more books, so many to read
Movies all day satisfy me
And chili cheese dogs are thy feeds.
Groovy smoothies and rad tunes can be had in the kitchen
Gaze at the stars through the spectacular, amazing skylight
Which has been dubbed bitchin’.
I can do whatever my heart desires
I can forget all of my worldly troubles
For I am the key to my own wicked inner sanctum
Belonging wraps her arms around them
Sparks twitter around the clouds
Lightning yearning to dance
Broken fragments of red glass occupy sacred ground
Cuts are inflicted, but no scars show
Rogues howl to their goddess for providence
Only to have a shadow’s breath whisper by
Men scurry through the wilderness into the clearing
The wheels turn on the rainbow road
My soles keep pushing clockwise
My will refuses to slow down and take a breath.
Cars zip through the Sahara as I follow
With my body seventy percent evaporated.
At long last, a decline appears and my body freezes in the plastic negative
My brain’s natural helmet rests on the bars of the metal ram
The tumbling rumble of the rumbling tum would not cease like
A lie being swished around a building of spies
You have reached your destination, my internal gps
One small step for man, though man has had one too many drinks of low spirits, man leans over towards the grass.
Red waterfall spews from my mouth with white chunks of mystery meat.
Vile as it may be, it smiles as it droops toward the sidewalk. I smile back, sincerely. The first one in months.
Up, once again I vomit
Joyful cries of children
Visions from childhood days of pancakes made by mom and naps in grassy fields
To feel bliss like that again makes this a successful day
After months of submitting to the monochrome motions of the escalator of life, I have been able to run up and down the stairs. Laughter that lasts longer than NCIS, a zip tie wraps around the already swirling whirlpool in my stomach, slowly closing the knot upon itself, I might just die, as long as I continue to feel. Darkness begins to consume the periscopes attached to my face, but the care-free bliss that toasts my heart and sets my mind at serenity lets my soul fly alongside the musical notes of high-larity.
A mystical jewel rolls down my face as I remember that the funniest joke in existence…
I see you wave at me from afar and Technicolor embers burst out of my eyes
That dopey U appears.
As I sit at the table with a sixteen ounce cup of dark brown bean water, working on my new story, I find it trying to not gaze at those brilliant rays of light emphasizing your finely sculpted features. Two spoonfuls of sugar. A smidge of cream.
Burnt cocoa locks cascading down your white mocha shoulders
Rose gloss enticing your victims to lean in for their last meal
Even those bronze plates you use to glare at me when I make a jester’s joke shifts to gold in the right light
You don’t find me funny but my foolishness amuses you
Talking to you is like speaking to the Mexican Sandy Olsson with more Sriracha
You catch me mesmerized by this elegant painting and tell me
You’re flattered but not interested in an unusually familiar deep tone
Blink and blink but Eugene’s clone is still in view Pupils roll toward the sky
The mirage is gone
I glance at the tiny fluorescent screen and see you’re still waving
How are we different
You and I?
I call and you come running, you call and I’m already there.
We both walk side by side without a chain to keep us from going too far, no matter what fabric it’s made out of
You could take a trip to Siberia and back if you desired and I wouldn’t mind
As long as you returned to me, I wouldn’t even need a souvenir, I just want you
Near, beside me, on the couch watching TV
I trust you and hope you trust me. I suppose you do because your grey and black fur is the infinite evidence that proves you lie with me at night
To protect me
I may have bought you but you are not my slave or pet, you are my friend
In the truest sense of the word
Wingman, but you’re getting all the numbers
You rigged the game, you mixed-eyed bandit
Change it back, so I can bask in fame.
Though I paid for you and you’re free to leave
Do you stay out of respect or obligation? Fondness or pity?
Am I your master or are you mine? Is anyone in control?
You bark for me to muzzle it as you stare at the vast and endless array of clouds
You’re fascinated by Mother Nature’s coloring of the floating cotton balls you love to eat so much. The navy blue splashed on top of the orange shmears accompanied by the pink accents.
Even you can’t look away from the visually delicious buffet of the world.
You’re right, there is no difference.
There’s a Difference
Eliasaph Maze Anderson
I want you
Not need you
That’s the difference
If I needed you, I wouldn’t care for you
That’s the difference
I wouldn’t feel for you
Feel with you
I’d be bare with you
High with you, not driving by for you
Not being there when you want me to
That’s the difference
If I didn’t want you, my dreams wouldn’t involve you
Our bond wouldn’t be anywhere close to true
That’s the difference
Pay No Mind
Eliasaph Maze Anderson
How can I advert my eyes when you look at me like I am the only one at the bar?
A spotlight emphasizes my importance to you as if you are the only one to take the time to relight my spot on the chandelier.
I sit and stay and stare at the door after you leave me to myself,
Though my tail only flutters for the one I adore.
Clocks will tick, phones won’t ring,
Imagining angels appear in the audience as you sing.
My head drops down to the floor the same way a student sits their head upon their desk
My mind delves into what it deems best.
You pay me no mind like a free month subscription to Spotify premium
Chilling with friends and they ask you, what do you see in him?
You tell them, you don’t know
If you knew then you would care enough not to disrupt the flow
The flow of electricity you and I get to see and lose ourselves to while our souls travel across dimensions to a sanctuary
No one knows
Where I can be alone, but not with you
You may like the view, but nothing else
And it may not be what you’re thinking, but you’re also not speaking
‘Cause you pay me no mind
And it’s been a long time since we’ve spoken, yet you’re unable to tell me real quick that you’re feeling broken,
So go away
Or that you’ve been spending time with friends drinkin’
Can’t talk today
I want you to be blunt
Let me know it’s gonna be a few months
So I should sit back and keep smoking my blunts
Have my friends sit me in a corner and place on my head a hat that reads dunce
More than once
Spend the time thinking of how hard I fell for your magic like a romantic for Shakespeare’s tragics
I was warned not to let the idea of you into my bed, is what they said
And if I looked around and listened
I could hear other sweet sounds that make my eyes glisten
And like a clown, I smile
Send you a text and star gaze at the Nile
Check my phone and find my message idle
I could be in a tomb, solving a mystery with Scooby-Doo, unlike the rest of the gang, I’d continue to think, where are you?
Because I refuse to see the clue
Right in front me
I’m unable to set my mind right
But I have to see
‘Cause in hindsight
The thought of you makes my heart bite
Yearning to be held tight
And I get other calls
But I wait for yours
Because I’m patient
And hesitant to close doors
Especially, one so fantastic
It’s authentic, not plastic, I know for sure
Though your impending goodbye scares me
My world is not asunder
Like an Egyptian cat, I’ll shake it off and continue to be legendary
But you pay me no mind and that drifts me to wonder